74,803 words.

...i'm done.

i finally finished writing sketches. / sketches of a lonely city last night.

it feels like it's taken a lifetime. i'm refusing to look at it or read it for the next few days though so i can see it through fresh and unbiased eyes. it feels a bit weird, 'cause i haven't gone a single day without looking at it for so long.

i guess i just felt tired after finishing. i wanted to feel happy and accomplished, because 8 months after I wrote those first 50,000 words for NanoWrimo, i finally finished a very different novel that i love so much. but i wasn't that happy, mainly 'cause i haven't decided whether i'm satisfied with those ending chapters, because those ending chapters are always the hardest to write.

i think i'm just sad that it's over. it's the first time, i've had a story weigh so heavy on my heart. these characters... they just grew by themselves, and their stories- i had to tell them. every one of those characters- i tried so hard to think like them, to feel like them, to really carry their emotions while i wrote for them.

i think the reason why i feel depressed is because that's all i'm going to write about them. i just wanted one novel- just one story- these 74, 803 words- to tell all i could about them. the rest, i think, i'll keep to myself.

writing is hard. living and writing at the same time is so tough.

so, i'm leaving the city of sketches. for a little while, before coming back. after all, that was only the first draft, and there's so much to be done.


here's a little doodle i did of Rhys and Kari from My Best Friend's Secret. i think i'll put these little doodles and art scraps here, 'cause they'll never be seen otherwise.



i wonder when i'll be able to bring these two back?

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